One of those days again. I'll try my luck. I guess that's assuming I have any.

[ PAUSE ]

No chance there's a Claire Bennet out there?

[ stifled sigh, swallow, fff ]

Might be asking too much.







[ooc; 1) placeholdery since work soonish. 2)forward-dated to later on when it's reasonable people will have made the conclusion it's one of those LOOK AT ALL THE PEOPLE :O days. 3)fourth-walling without spoilers beyond INTO ASYLUM is fine...y sorry parameters X.X and 4)weeeeep notifs are being hellish toward me so in addition to placeholder-ness...please bear with me? ;-; <3 sob longest ooc note of fail...]

( PRIVATE// UNHACKABLE//... )

This is going to get old for you guys, but friends deserve to know sooner than later, right?

Claire Bennet has been gone since--- is gone again.

...

I hope she's---

I hope we---

I'm so sick of this.



Crazy weekend as per usual. Guess I'm lucky this time in that department.


Too much--- don't even know the word for it.

...

Maybe I should just sign up with the hospital full time.

( private thoughts [some] )

[audio]



Exits and entrances are pretty common here. I didn't think the Hall would include a big cat, but I checked anyway....yeah maybe this part's not important.

Okay, I'm probably not going to say this too often, but here we go.

My apartment mate, one, Robert Chase?

He was right.

We have too much food, good food thanks to Eden, and I...really don't want to see it go to waste.

So, anyone hard up or just really bad at cooking?



[ooc; strikes were the beginning of his audio post but he deleted and re-recorded, just there.......idk stream-of-consciousness Peter. Slightly placeholder or slow maybe ;_; ldjfls s-sorry......]

This place keeps you on your toes.

Maybe---

Getting to the point, no details as usual but to friends of Claire Bennet, just so you know--I don't know if she had any plans with anyone or anything, but she wouldn't want you to think she'd forgotten or something--anyway, a message: she went back home, not sure exactly when.

Well, yesterday but---

Recently.

...keep her in your best thoughts, if you can.

Nathan's never been very black and white. He's a shark---his words, not mine, okay. And he's told me so, plenty of times, not that I ever really listened. I figured he just didn't want me to expect too much from him. The way things have happened, maybe he was just playing down something worse. Maybe...maybe he stopped believing he was a good person or something, or maybe he never thought he was, so he decided he'd be the person to play the guy who makes 'tough choices' or something. But even if I laid it all out, I don't think I could get behind defending him anymore.

I don't know if I want to.

But I should want to.

He's my brother.

We've saved each other more than once.

But the guy who told me he wouldn't leave me, I'm not sure he's that guy anymore.

And if he is, it's buried too deep.

He should never have ---

To Claire, to Mohinder, Hiro, Matt....to me....

...

Well, more like he never would have, I guess.

If he was who he used to be.

...or who I wanted him to be.

[ deep breath, pause ]

No one is perfect.

If we can take away anything from having to face history, it's to not make the same mistakes--the same as it is with everything I guess. For the people who don't hate what they saw today, that's good. Not every family is whole--you know, white picket fence, dogs or cats or whatever, the American Dream--even if they look the part. Most are far from it, but if there are even a few dads out there, fathers who care or cared, people you trusted and kept that trust, then I think that can count as hope for the rest of us.

We're not lost causes and we don't have to be the people we grew up with.

At the same time, not every guy who made lousy choices is automatically a bad person. Sometimes we can't judge, and then it's up to us, specific cases, where we go with what we're given.

Dad was insane, but mom...

...I don't know but she's mom. I can't let her go.

Nathan either.

Family doesn't work like that...well, it's not supposed to.

If there isn't a single redeeming quality you can think of, or a single memory that's good, then I'm sorry. This isn't meant to force anyone to see someone as something they aren't or weren't, to make villains into heroes or...normal people into extraordinary ones.

I just felt like talking and feeling like someone was listening. Other than--- well he wasn't ever really here. I know that...I know... Anyway, you could say that you're not supposed to learn anything from curses----and maybe that's true too. I don't get the feeling that the deities are here to nurture us, admitting that right now, but the real point is that we can get something out of this, even if we don't know what it is right away, even if we can't put it into words.

...it's got to be worth it, something over nothing.

Or at least, that's what I need to believe.

[ awkward pause ]

Annnnd...looks like the snow is already melting, on a completely unrelated note.


( ooc stuff )

( Private || Off the network thoughts -- recent, or sort of recent... )



I guess this applies more to people who have been here for a while, but it's really open to anyone.

For some, the idea of multiple worlds isn't anything new or as unbelievable as it is for others. On the other hand, some find it completely ridiculous, even months after being here, and even after accepting it, still think it's borderline crazy, even if it's the truth, what's really happening.

Here, we're under the impression that we can't leave by choice, that we could be here for days or years, seconds, or lifetimes, and that at home time itself stops, which means we go back to the point we first left. So what can we take away from that in what we do here?

Do you try to stick to what you know? Do you try to be someone different? How much of what you do here is connected to what is going on back in your own world, even if nothing is moving forward---or because nothing is moving forward?

I left nursing because I thought---

No that's not important.

Not anymore.



( This OOC note involves teal deer...not really, yes really. )

[Locked FROM Heroes crew...and Robert Chase...yeah]

This question is a little vague...okay or maybe a lot.

[ slight sort of forced laugh...dies fast ]

Anyway, I was just wondering...for those of you who believe in God, or anything similar--some greater force at work, something bigger than human beings, bigger than the individual--what do you do when you feel like maybe that god, or that entity, isn't listening anymore?

Do you do anything at all?

It's hard to just trust that someday making the best decisions we can is going to add up to something when they come back like that---

Hiro--

Mohinder--

Nathan why didn't you--

[/end NO CHASE AND NO HEROES filter]

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[Heroes crew locked-Sylar & Luke]

Hiro, are you--

Mohinder, did---

Claire, I wish-- I should have--

Micah, I need to talk to---

Sylar---

...no, none of that's right.

What are we supposed-- what am I--

...

Roll call, guys.

[/end Heroes crew locked]

[Public; viewable to all]

So I'm trying my hand at the barista thing right now, have been in nursing, retail and--- well no that doesn't count-- and a few other things. It's interesting to try out new stuff, get into new environments. I guess that's one of the positives of being here--you're sort of forced to figure yourself into a new and unexpected situation. Even people who are used to parallel worlds, from what I've heard and understand, usually find this place to be a shock, even a little.

...

Anyway, rambling about...whatever aside, a gold star for my niece because without her I'd still be roommate...less.

Claire Bennet, in the words of one of my favorite people: you're totally my hero.


[ooc: sudden....must tag tomorrowafter work....3 <3 apologie]

( Private || Off the network thoughts -- recent, or sort of recent... )


I've had plenty of jobs, part-time anyway, but the Turnabout is definitely one of the most pleasant ones so far. If you've never been, you should stop by at some point---and by 'you' I mean, well, anyone really.

[FILTERED || UNHACKABLE ; Adrian Veidt]

My schedule is flexible, so, just give me an estimation of when's good for you and we can pick a day. I still think that was a ridiculous amount but...yeah.

[ /end filter ]

Sylar----


[ooc: private refers to a lot of stuff, and much spurred on by evil angel bury the coat of arms ]